keep me in for the ride

sometimes I'm so tired, I can't sleep,
so worried, that i smile,
so happy, i cry,
and so afraid that i take the jump.
I do all these things because i am weak. And it will always get to me. Even though i fail everyday it never crosses my mind to give up. I was always under the impression that i have all the time in the world. but each day that i give in to my weakness is another day that i lose something dear to me. But my idea is that i must let go of what I'm afraid to lose. All ideas are bulletproof i just hope this one is foolproof. What to do what to do. Not everything comes naturally i find the most insightful thing i have is my mind when i listen but tthe truth is i always ignore because it is telling me things I don't want to hear. but for you i will hear an listen, even though i wont speak the words to you ever probably, but you speak the words that destroy my mind, and the looks that burn my eyes, and the voice that keeps me alive.